There are so many emotions right now. I have been worried sick for so long that this day would never come and now that it's here...I'm terrified. I felt like a huge lump was in my throat when I saw that plus sign immediately appear.
Ryan's reaction was extremely happy, I was the one who just stood there emotionless while I cried. He thought that I would be more happy...I thought I would be too. Don't get me wrong...I'm excited! I'm just so scared as I have always had these overwhelming fears and emotions of physically being pregnant. The whole "will by body be able to handle this" and "can I just do this" constantly have been in the back of my head.
Since we wanted to be sure the test was right, we went back to the store to grab a digital test and sure enough - in less than 30 seconds it said "pregnant"! The funny thing about our grocery store trip is that as we were walking in, a pregnant lady walked out. Then immediately in the doorway, another pregnant lady was checking out the produce...talk about an omen ;)
I called the doctor today to make my first appointment and I can't go in until August 17th so right now I need to just wait it out until I can get better confirmation from my doctor. Talk about being anxious!
Right now I'm feeling shaky and jittery because I'm just nervous, but I am just experiencing minor cramping (like I'm about to start my period, but it doesn't happen), some dizziness and a little chest pain (only because I'm anxious) ;) Hopefully I will be one of lucky one's to coast through with nothing more than this!!!
I will be using this blog to keep our families updated on the progress of this little Baby V and to express my fears, emotions and progress throughout this long journey ahead.
Until then, I will use this time to soak this new information in and figure out how I'm going to survive the next 9 months ;)
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